My Psycho Ramblings

[kamilicious]

One moment im awake
then im caught in this deadly dream
i just want to scream
but who would hear me
im wandering aimlessly
where could i be
what happened to the real me
why arent you here to rescue me
cant you hear me calling endlessly
this pain it doesnt fade
no matter how i pass the days
i cant escape this reality
there is nothing here but the truth of me
becoming something ugly
something i dont wanna see

[kamilicious]

I feel you
melting away from me
grasping tenderly
to what used to be
fading relentlessly
into nothing
the deep blue sea
as it swallows me
I reach for you
but I cannot see
trapped beneath a surface
i cannot breach

[kamilicious]

I feel you slip away from me
the distance grows more every passing day
I cant deal with this pain
the love you have to fake
torn from deep inside of me
turned ugly by the truth i made
slaughtered innocence
i just cant breathe
take this life from me
i dont deserve to be
i remain tortured in the depths you cannot see
no saviour can keep me
darkness is all that will meet me
nobody cares enough to pray for me
all those others in the same
pitiful destiny, trapped with an emptiness
you just cant feel
its over now
theres not enough left of the girl you seek
a shattered fairy tale that just wont be
no happily ever after
just another broken dream

[kamilicious]

stop the drama
let it go
ruin this life
there wont be no more
keep holdin on
to that pain you live
keep on drowning
no one to save you kid

[kamilicious]

something has a hold of me,
something dark and dreary
I cant see
I try to wash it off
But it clings to me
Don’t let me poison you
It just wouldn’t do
Another soul made blue
By the death in me
The wickedness that goes unseen
Strangling the life from me
Stay away,
don’t even breathe the same air as me
it wont do dont you see

[kamilicious]

this one is an oldie



Sometimes late at night when my world is
dark an quiet,I lie awake an think..
where would i be? ,without you...
and when i fall asleep ,left to my dreams..
who is it you think? ,that i see...
and in the mornin ,when the sun pullz over
the horizon and its gentle rays seek,
to caress me back to life
why is it you think?,that i bother to rise..
and when in the drudgery of my day
my heart feels its heaviest..and i dont
think i can take another step
who is it you think? ,i count on to be
there..to lighten the burden i bare..
and in my final days,when one more breath i
cannot take..
who is it you think ,that i envision there..
holdin m'hand,strokin m'hair,who is it there?

[kamilicious]

When you start to miss me
and you think we are far apart
take a look inside you
and see how close we are
When you start to miss me
and you think Im never there
take a look in the mirror
and see that Im there
When you start to wish for me
and you think I dont care
listen carefully and hear me where I am
In the steady rythem of your beating heart
see me where I am
In the deep green of your beautiful eyes
In the blonde of your hair
When you start to miss me and think Im never there
Know that I am with you
When you cry, I am your tears
When you laugh, I am there
When you start to miss me

[kamilicious]

In the light of a pale moon,
Nothing to block my view
I saw out upon the sea
A narrow reflection that was me. . .

I saw the golden mane flow to gray
And the years just swept me away
Emerald eyes as they lost their shine
A narrow reflection that was mine. . .

I saw a child of light
And he grew, from an angel to a man
He slowly let go of my hand
A narrow reflection that was me. . . .

[kamilicious]

Days go by, so slowly now
Lost to me the love that couldn’t be
Holds my heart its prisoner
None of it was true
You weren’t even you
A dream that wasn’t real
Nothing left of me to steal
The soul I possessed
Broken now at best
That heart it strangles
Soon there will be nothing left
Pushed from my mind
Given over to the sands of time
Every hope, every memory
What did any of it mean?
If anything
It doesn’t seem I can say
Any of the things I wanted you to hear
A phantom, a wish
How could I believe this nuts
A chess piece
Moved to suit your needs
But you were more to me
What does that say about me?
That even now I wish it weren’t so
It’s been so hard to let go
I don’t even know who I am anymore
I guess that will make you happy
But I don’t care
I am who I am
That’s it, there